tonight

there was something different tonight....a noticable moment with each of my three babies that i really stopped and took it all in. i closed my eyes and wished i'd always remember this small five minutes of time... i didn't want it to end. not quite sure why it hit me like this. but the emotions and realization of just how fast this whole mothering little toddlers and babies thing ...well it sunk in today. it is going by way too fast. of course i wish for more sleep and more patience and more balance.
but most of all...i wish i will always remember these little moments.......

a quick swim with just samantha....i reassured her worried little face and she regained her confidence swimming like a fish again. she was so proud of herself and i loved every second. i loved holding her hand walking back home and talking.

after dinner kinsley crawled into my lap at the table and we sat and ate giant cantelope slices. melon juice dripping all over. her little face, her beautiful hazel eyes looking up at me, and her big smile as she said "look at me mommy". i got a lump in my throat. 

and at bedtime i rocked thomas to sleep after nursing...then the song playing came from a CD of lullabies Tyler and I made when we were pregnant with samantha. "how long do you want to be loved...is forever enough" the same song i listened to when i rocked samantha and kinsley as newborns. i breathed it all in.

maybe my looooong week has turned me into a tired and sappy mommy tonight. but really thats okay with me. i just cant imagine my life any other way and i don't want it to speed by like it already has so far.



after dinner playtime tonight...this picture makes me smile..the girls playing pop beads, colebaby watching over, daddy and thomas relaxing.

my heart is so full of love tonight. night night.