rock a bye baby

there's something about this whole baby-growing-up-so-fast thing that gets me thinking back and feeling all nostalgic about being a new mommy. of course this comes up as i close another chapter in her babyhood and focus on the accomplishments that lie ahead as she becomes an adorable toddler. to get right to it....two nights ago, july 19th, was our last night of breastfeeding. what a difficult decision this was to wean her from nursing and to say goodbye to what's been one of the most profound and special experiences in my life. its hard to describe the bonding that took place......the little secrets i whispered and hopes i dreamed of as i stared into her little face for the past 14 1/2 months. i loved it...loved that it was just her and i, loved that i could nourish her and provide for her growing, healthy body, loved that we could be anywhere, loved the little grunts and noises she made and sighs of relief when she was full, the closeness and the fact that it wasn't always easy. now after so many months i feel a little sad to end it mixed with a lot of feelings of accomplishment and pride that she is more independent and getting older. so i remind myself (alot)....its okay for things to end as its only the beginning of something new and exciting...... and i can't wait for that! 

first time nursing samantha, only minutes old....
taking a quick break to feed samantha at the beach in fort myers, six months old
dreaming of milk and falling asleep......13 months old